turning 20

At this point of life, I see lots of uncertainty.
I thought I'd be clear about my life as always, but then came to realize just how many things are beyond my control.
Lost my first dream when 12, I still remember how hard I cried. Then I told myself there's other way that will do. I can get something else during the process. So I went to TFG, met lots of amazing girls, life shines. We lived like the world's ours and that's our time. And then I came to NTU Law.
My life has been pretty much under my control. But what happened to my families affects me a lot.
Mom and Grandma were dignosed with cancer at nearly the same time while I was 17. It was the hardest year I ever had. Luckily, they survived. I have to say that I'm lucky, at least it made my senior year in high school more endurable. However, we still lost our grandma last year. The day is still vivid, how I became speechless, how I cried so unconsiously time after time.
I thought I may try to stiffened my heart and then I can focus on things with a strong will, but failed time after time.
In the end, families gives me all. Though sometimes they takes everything from me as well.

Hope I can hold my direction so firm as I always did in the following years.
Head foward.